There comes a moment in life, when we quit everything, we drop all our needs, and get away from all attachments… it’s the moment when we become aware, when we get to know ourselves. When we sense our completeness, our fullness, when we surrender to our higher self, the moment becomes life, it becomes eternal, when the sense of past seems like a small script in some story and future an illusion. Things or circumstances or even people just become incapable of making us happy or sad or worried, when we sense the endless joy at our core occupying all our presence. The presence expands then to involve everything in the universe within itself, and the sense of oneness gives stability to the mind.
On the verge of being dissolved, the identity calls us back to the separated existence—small little name, a body, a bunch of experiences and some relations… this separated existence too then makes sense, maybe there’s some purpose for this life experience. Desires are there but no needs, dreams are there but no compulsions, love is there but no attachments, overwhelming passion is there for creating something from this human existence, but there’s no stress. A calmness, stillness, assurance and contentment fill the mind; the heart lights up and shows the pathway. Our job is then to follow the directions, and just have some courage to be ourselves.
There’s a reason for this life experience, and the universe cares a lot about what we really want to experience in this lifetime… it works hard day and night in its mysterious ways to make us to feel fulfilled, what we have to do is to just get out of its way. Yah we do tend to block its way when we calculate, when we think about needs and chase them, when we judge things and try to conform to some norms at the expense of not being ourselves. Statistics and probability are very good tools in labs, they are the basis of research and I love them, but in real life, they’re useless. The brain may say that there’s only one in thousandth chance of getting something, but the heart just pushes us to that direction; a ‘wise’ person (or a robot?) can’t take that risk (instead for them there are many ‘safer’ options), but a follower of the heart does take it; and guess what, advice from heart always pays off, the follower gets the thing in spite of all the odds.
In fact, it doesn’t matter whether we get the thing or not, because it’s not our job, it’s the job of the universe, our job is just to be true to our hearts and be ourselves, and enjoy this moment of existence as it’s such a great chance. Nope, this isn’t a selfish thought, because the best way we can affect the lives of our loved ones, the best way we can have impact on this universe, and the best way we can bring out the changes in humankind the way we desire is by being ourselves for every moment of our lives. I too am one of those who stay awake at nights sometimes, but it’s not the stress that keeps me awake, instead it’s the passion for this life.